Simplifying my life now would take some heavy-duty work. I have no concerns about wanting to eliminate people from my life. There is not one person in my family or among my friends that I would want to live without.
The simplification I’m craving, is simplifying my stuff, my baggage, my dated items that are no longer needed. This is a daunting task- Easier said than done.
I overthink my possessions. I think maybe I will need them at another time. Or perhaps if I throw something out, I will regret it. My unwillingness to make decisions in the moment is causing me to retain unnecessary stuff that is dragging me down.
I have closets with clothes that date back 50 to 60 years. These clothes represent times in my life that were pleasurable or a happy event. They may also be kept because of their price tag and my fear that I wouldn’t have the means to replace them. I wear very classic clothes and avoid fads or recent fashion trends, so this can work for me. But I retain way too many pieces.
I tend to hang onto paperwork because I feel overwhelmed making decisions about what to keep and what to throw. I’m also afraid that I won’t remember all the information contained on these papers. I am a student of the old school that says many things should be kept for taxes without trusting that the computer would be adequate.
Books and mementos
I love books. I have acquired a multitude of books that I haven’t completely read. I’ve read the dust covers and often several chapters or I’ve seen them discussed on interviews. I can’t let go of a book I haven’t completely digested.
In order to simplify my life, I need to eliminate a few phrases in my vocabulary such as:
- What if?
- Maybe someday
- I may need it down the line
- Don’t know what to do with it, so I’ll keep it
- I’ll decide later
I recently read a quote by Clarice Lispector:
I only achieve simplicity with enormous effort.
I’m just not sure I have enough time or energy left to put forth the necessary work to complete this formidable project. It’s time to get started and set aside my indecisiveness and insecurity and get started. Easier said than done? We’ll see.