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The Grass is Always Greener

The Grass is Always Greener

When I was a kid,  I had so many opportunities for anticipation. I kind of look at it from the standpoint of “the grass is always greener”…You know,  I thought others seem to be in a better situation than me, although they may not be. But other times, I just loved looking ahead to what I KNEW would be special times in the future. Continue reading

Freedom and Jesus

Freedom in Jesus

I always knew I would go to college. It was more than growing up, more than the next step…it was freedom!

Actually, I didn’t even know there was an option. It wasn’t until years later that I discovered that my dad didn’t really believe that I would go…and graduate. (I’m kinda glad that no one ever shared that little detail with me.) Continue reading

The Infertility Mountain

I turned 30 in 1994. Tom and I had moved to Sun Prairie to be closer to my family when we began having children of our own. Unfortunately, starting a family turned out to NOT be so straightforward. And that is the theme of my 30s…infertility.

“You have been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved.” -Anonymous

The Infertility Mountain

Here is my “baby” Eli. Before Tom and I divorced, we separated for a while. Within days of him moving out, I bought a dog.

We began trying to start our family when I was 27. We got divorced, childless, when I was 33. Then I married Craig when I was 35. More infertility work followed. We got Luka and Kadon from Russia in 2006, when I was 41.
It seemed like the goal to start/have a family colored every event of that decade. To say that my clock was ticking VERY LOUDLY is not overstating the facts. Continue reading

Music Thru the Ages

I’m really good at identifying the year a song came out. Doing such guessing games with friends–I always associate music with a tie from my life.

“It only takes one song to bring back a thousand memories.”

music thru the ages1968

I remember Peter Paul & Mary playing on my parent’s beige alarm clock radio. I was laying on their bed and watching my mom getting ready to go out. Her hair was fixed fancy and she was in a dress and was wearing perfume. I thought, “Why does the good music always come on when I’m asleep in bed?” Continue reading

The Power of Red Nail Polish

red nail polish power

As a child, I spent late afternoons during the school year and long summer days with my grandma Is. She wasn’t a teacher by trade, but she taught me what was important through constant example. Continue reading

Rhubarb Custard Pie

When It was summer, I was the one responsible for mowing grandma Is’ lawn. In the backyard, I would make slow careful circles around her peonies and rhubarb patch.

rhubarb custard pieThe peonies would bloom and later be held up with a circular piece of chicken wire through the summer. The rhubarb grew unrestricted. Leaves were generously pulled–never cut–from the plant. I would pull and single stalk and suck on the puckeringly tart end as I sat on the hard dry ground under the weeping willow. The cicadas song sounded like the power lines vibrating. I loved the late afternoon when the cooing of morning doves was accompanied by other lawn mowers humming from distant yards.

Grandma would bring in an armload of the big-leafed stalks to make her rhubarb custard pie. Continue reading

A Turtle’s Timid Transformation

A Turtle's Timid TransformationI used http://www.spiritanimal.info to determine my spirit animal. The turtle was what I have been drawn to for years. I wear a bracelet every day with one on it. The turtle reminds me to take small, steady steps toward my goals.

But apparently, my spirit animal can change. Who knew? Continue reading

Three Wishes … No Thank You

Okay, for some crazy reason, maybe a genie, a shooting star, maybe a fairy, birthday candles, or perhaps a leprechaun unbelievably grants me three wishes.

What would I wish?

Now, I have never bought a lottery ticket.

I was once given tokens to spend as part of a weekend package that included a visit to a casino. I gave the tokens away.

So this opportunity will be a real challenge for me. How big or small should I wish? Well…

Health, wealth, and happiness are the first things that come to mind. Continue reading