The women in my life are facing many changes and it’s brought to mind the idea that to have the kind of life you want, you need to let go of what you don’t want in your life. So it’s time to ask myself, what kind of life do I want and what do I need to let go of in order to obtain that kind of life?
The first thing that comes to my mind is the clutter that I’ve accumulated since I moved out on my own. I tend to be a pack-rat and my basement contains so much clutter. The storage room contains toys and games from when the children were little, ceramics that Grandma Is never got around to painting, old prom dresses, etc. For whatever reason – I have a hard time letting go of the old stuff. By letting go of this clutter, I can make room for the new and simplify my home. I’ve currently been cleaning up some of the paperwork clutter. I’ve been shredded old documents that I’ve been holding onto dating back to 1986!!! (Don’t ask me why I’ve been saving documents for that long!!!)
Another thing that I can let go of is old clothing. I still have clothes from 10+ years ago that I thought I would wear again. The problem with that idea is that when I do get back down to that size, those items of clothing will probably not be in style anymore. Plus – when I get back down to that size – I want to go on a shopping spree for new stuff!!!
That takes care of the household, but then I start to think of the clutter in my mind. What do I want to be doing in 5 years? 10 years? Do I still want to be working in technology and be working for someone else? At what age do I get to retire? I have a hard time imagining what the future has in store for me and the changes happening. I need to start working on the next phase of my life or at least start thinking about it. It’s coming faster and faster and I’m not ready yet. The process of change is not an easy concept for me to handle. My mind goes into overwhelm and then it shuts down. I have no idea what comes next so I guess I’ll do what comes naturally – I’m going to go take a nap.