I’m Just Not Ready Yet

I always say that “I can’t imagine life without me”.  This is a really true statement and feeling.  Perhaps we all feel this way, but how can life go on if I weren’t here????

I’m sure I would be panicked as the vacuuming wasn’t done, bills needed to be paid, and things were just not perfect in my world.  I have actually thought that if I had everything perfect it was a sign that perhaps I would be leaving this imperfect place that I have here on earth.  I actually would reflect on my life and realize that I have had a wonderful life, full of love, fun and great memories.

I have been married for 51 years to the same person who has helped (on a good day) to make my life special.  I have lived in the same town all my life, lived in the same house for thirty-five years, have actually worked at the same place for fifty-one years.  Boring to most, but to me, pretty amazing.

I have had such fabulous memories with both friends and family.  I have six awesome grandchildren that I would hug so hard they couldn’t possibly forget me. I would hope that I had established a good foundation for my children to carry on without me.   My life has certainly been a journey only created and shared by those around me.

My family keeps me extremely busy and for that I am thankful for that.  I have them all close and consider myself very fortunate to be able to share in sports, dance recitals, concerts, you name it.  I have had such wonderful experiences, simple by some standards, but fully wonderful to me.

If I were to live my life over again sure I think I would probably do things just the way they are only I would get my priorities in order at a much younger age.  You see, cleaning and stuff like that is just not as important as doing things with friends and/or family.

I have been able to get an education, snag a couple of my dreams, one of them being owning a cottage, having children and having the greatest grandchildren in the world.

If I were to die today I would have to say I am fulfilled and happy, and still couldn’t imagine life without me!!!!

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