I’ve always said life should be lived so there would be no regrets…and still if the moment came that I knew this breath was my last how would I feel?
As I sit here writing this there is a purring kitten lying behind my head. There would be no more of that. No more sweet puppy kisses, no more late-night talks with my amazing son, no more prophetic conversations or trips with my quirky sister, no more sweet nighttime snuggling with my main man….NO! I have to stop. This is getting way too Nicholas Sparks!
If I were to die today, it would be without regret. Oh, I’ve made my share of mistakes and from each of them, I have learned my greatest lessons and gained my fullest wisdom. I often say I have earned my PhD in life. My life has been like a tapestry. The dark times contrasted against the light and joyful times have formed a patchwork of memories and experiences that will take me to the next chapter with a warm heart, a smile, and yes, a tear.
After multiple relationship challenges, I have met and married my soul mate. We have spent 30 wonderful years together. I have embraced the past 26 years marveling at the wonderful son I was told I could never have. I have returned home to spend time with my close and amazing family after being apart for way too many, never to be repeated days.
I have caught myself many times lately wasting a precious moment feeling sad or even depressed and then reminded myself that I will not spend my valuable time feeling anything other than blessed, loved, happy and at the very least retrospective.